God sent a guardian angel to me.

It has always a bad start up to most of the university students in getting new friends. I had 3 close ‘friends’. I thought they’ll be my bridesmaid, but they don’t even be my friends. Something crashed really hard and ‘boom’, we all shattered and became stranger. They gossiped about me, talked bad at my back, harsh words, sometimes talk nasty about me loudly so that I can listen and the list can go long.

I was cornered. Depressed. Sorrow. I could not take this. I cried a lot. I was devastated by this feeling. It just haunt me. I shared with no one as I want to be portrayed as a brave girl. But, I could not bear it anymore. I decided to be alone and scared to talk to other people. I am started to see my weak points and started losing my strength. I set a limit to myself and decided to clip my wings. I thought I am the most unfortunate girl in the world. I am started to behaving less Jassinda. Luckily, it didn’t last long.

I met him. He is someone whom I can count on. He listens. He’ll wait till I finish up. I started to share all my downs and downs to him. He listens. I never met someone like him.  He was so kind, caring, responsible, strong, honest, sweet, polite and funny (I could laugh all day long) the list goes on and on!

He brought joy into my life. He stay awake to listen to my sorrows. He is (and will be forever) my happy pill. He is a God fearing man. I can see changes in my attitudes because he influenced me. The way I talk and react; I got it from him (even my mom said that). This is because he led me in spiritually, challenge me intellectually, encourage me emotionally and protect me physically. Even though I’m not alone anymore, I’m emotionally unstable and I lose temper so fast (still figuring out how to be calm). But he still accept me for who I am. He’s a real living inspiration for me. Finally, I got a real best friend. 

A couple of days later he invited me to go to a church so that I can find eternal peace and unfailing love. I decided to go. I felt God’s presence touched me. God touched my heart, which I could physically feel setting me free and healed me.  I heard a voice in my heart told me to forgive the group of friends that made me depressed. It was 5am in the morning, I sent a forgive message with some bible verses and sent it to them. It was so awkward (like, how you can really message those people who did bad to you and you still message them anyway) but God made me to do it because He wants me to forgive them. I felt so peaceful and relieved after doing that. That night I prayed a simple prayer:

“God be in my life, forgive me of my sins and help me to go through this”.

God encouraged me to talk to my friends about the change God had made in my life. The faith tells me that no matter what lies ahead of me, God is already there. Drowning in depression and God saves me, fixed me and leave the scars for me to remember who you are in my life. God changed me for the better because I was so bitter and hurt by my past; I almost let it ruin my future. I know I’ve changed. I’m more compassionate, loving, forgiving and happier.

God sent him to me so that I can realign my life, to get closer to Him. I am thanking God for this wonderful life that God has now gave to me. And I said a prayer for all of you who are reading this today, that God would touch you with His healing hand and keeps you and your loved one safe and sound. Amen.